The Unknown

It's been a while since we've posted. The reason: the unknown.

Dad's cancer has not been kind to him this time around. Not kind at all. Chemo is effective, but it has been slowly deteriorating the rest of him. He's been in pain, immobile, suffering a lot.

Last Friday morning mom found dad not breathing. Our neighbors resuscitated him and he was taken to the hospital via ambulance. He's been there for 4 days.

By now, all of us children have flown home. We are keeping vigil by his side at the hospital. He's still fighting. Still determined to beat cancer and get better. In the meantime, the following is not on his side: glucose levels, kidneys, his heart, bedsores, pneumonia...it just keeps coming.

Today we had many tough conversations. Tough conversations and strange conversations. We talked about gremlins and skiing in between topics like dialysis and intubation. Every hour is an emotional roller coaster. We can be mad at him for his stubborn nature or we can be proud of his courage and strength and perseverance. He is definitely a strong and determined man. He believes in miracles.

So today we pray in the way God taught us to: Thy Kingdom Come. Thy Will Be Done.